So, we know that I'm not the most body confident person around these parts. BUT I thought I would get the guts up to post a few photos of my body up.
I haven't shown people these scars, a mixture between key hole surgery scars (you can only see 2 in these pics, there are 5 in total) and stretch marks gained from 2 pregnancies.
I get a lot of agro over my body, not just from people online but people in every day life. The usual lines are " J, don't you miss being slim and curvy?" or "seriously, if I looked like you, I'd wear a bin bag".
I've spent years fighting my body size, since having my first child, god knows I tried hard. Hours down the gym, eating healthy, you name it but nothing worked. It wasn't until just under 2yrs ago, my Dr found out what the issue was but at that time, I was pregnant. Unfortunately I had to have an emergency c-section, which put me out for a good 2-3 months.
Not sure how all these famous women pull off the fitness lark 2-3 weeks after having a section, cus it's bloody agony! Do too much and you're shattered. Don't get me wrong, I hardly sat around. From the end of week 2, I was out walking 2-3 miles a day with the pushchair and my new bubba. I'm not one for sitting around and doing sod all!
But the combination of having a disabled older son, on a concoction of pain reliefs and a baby, I was shattered. In April 2012, I had an operation to remove my gallbladder, which helped big time! I felt regenerated, the poison had been removed, or so I thought. I'm continually facing liver function issues, I have to have fortnightly liver function tests and I'm pretty much a germ attractor, any illnesses going around, I'm bound to get them. But in between all this, I am trying my best to lose weight. As they say 'slowly slowly catchee monkey' and I intend to reach my goal of a 4 stone loss by the end of 2013.
Until then, I will embrace my body, my scars are my story, it makes me unique, they make me 'me'.
Anyone who can not accept me for my faults, is not worthy of seeing my strengths!
So, I dedicate this blog post to all those women AND men who are lacking confidence, for those who are like me. It doesn't matter what those opinionated folk say, I'd rather be in my body today, with my 2 boys than be the slim no-kids girl who had no clue what she was doing in her life.
I have an aim and I will reach it!
So, as you can see, this turned out to be a little bit of a moaning post but it's better to let it out than keep in stuck in.
Ta ra folks and thank you for reading x
